a brief, detailed diary entry
thursday: 3:23 a.m. the nitelight behind the television detains my attentions in the shadows, until the diversions of small indicators on other electronic components, thermostats, cellphone...... smoke alarm...become a host of stars--36 tiny green, yellow and blue attentioning distractions from deep sleep....then there is the blood rushing through my veins, tinnitus, thirst, the bladder's demand, the cat's report on the moth floating in her waterbowl. yet, all these things that call me from slumber may serve to divert my anxiety from unknown terrors hidden in my unconscious.....but this is the more frequent path taken in early morning,and preferred to an abrupt awakening to the continuum of temporality.....then i am asleep again, or have never awakened....yes, i am dreaming of these little lights, for i have awakend in a dark room....no, wait.....as i turn my head, a plasma light appears from behind a treetrunk, and i am sucked into some vast fractal universe tha...